I made a decision today. Some may call it a selfish one, others will call it a justified one. I am calling it a necessary one….I decided to stop pumping. For the last 5 1/2 months, I have pumped every 3 hours. I am here to talk about the very common and normal feelings of guilt after nursing or pumping.
This means that every time my son has ate since he was born, I have pumped. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining as I realize some people are not able to do this. I am here to tell you if you are considering stopping for any reason you don’t need to feel guilty. I know what it’s like to get ready to leave the house for any reason, just to realize that you need to pump in 30 minutes so it’s pointless to try to leave until after. I’ve been there when you are alone almost every time you pump and the baby is losing it while you have your hands full pumping. When you have to stop multiple times to comfort baby and it takes 45 minutes instead of 15. I have also been there alone in the middle of the night, and it’s exhausting. I know how you feel when your child takes 30 minute naps and most of that time you are pumping, and then the nap is over and you didn’t even get to use the bathroom. I feel for you!
I am ultimately making this switch for my son. I am doing it for him so that I am a happier and healthier me. I need to feel less drained, so I have more to give him. We need a little more freedom so we can go places together and not have to up and leave and rush home every couple hours so I can pump.
But then, there’s that guilt that creeps up on me like a ninja. It tells me that I am so blessed to have this ability to feed my son, that others may not be able to. I start to second guess myself and wonder how I could give that up. I start to feel selfish because all of my reasons seem to make life easier for one person, the person who is supposed to make all the sacrifices…me.
BUT WAIT, I am so tired that I am not at my best. I am beyond tired, sleep deprived, and grumpy. I need this me time so that we can have better and more enjoyable US TIME. And in the end, that is the most important thing. Nobody ever thanked a grumpy person for spending time with them. The baby will be happy and healthy. They will survive without breast milk. Formula feeding is not the end of the world, they will survive and grow up to be healthy adults… I promise. They won’t hold it against you that you switched to formula because you just couldn’t take it anymore. Stay tuned and subscribe to my newsletter so you don’t miss my future post on how to quit pumping once you decide to!Make sure to follow Artsy Mama Bear on Facebook, Pinterest, and Instagram, or subscribe to our Weekly Newsletter! :) This post may contain affiliate links, read our Disclosure Policy for more information.